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You don't know how terrible I felt. It was that minute,I stared at it blankly. Why doesn't anything just make a damn sense in my mind. Why. I find it so hard to control myself,and thoughts just ran through my mind. Everything is horrible,why can't it be nightmare. At least let me wake up and find that everything will be back to where it was. If only.....With my utmost courage,I'll try.